Monday, October 29, 2012

How time has flown...

Oh my goodness. I can't believe I haven't updated since February!! I guess I'm a little overdue!! 

For those of you who know me, you know that one of the goals that I most wanted to reach was getting to Onederland or for those of you unfamiliar with that term...under 200lbs. I don't even remember the last time I was under 200lbs. I do remember the pain and sadness when I was 14 and realized that for the first time I was over 200lbs. I used to fear the scale so I don't really know when I turned that corner. It has been a long and sometimes painful journey but as of October 28th, 2012 I weighed 198.6lbs!! It was such a huge accomplishment for me. After some personal struggles I decided I can no longer afford to live my life for someone else. I decided I had to find the time for me and for my fitness. So...without any further ado, here are my current and pre-stats! I'll post some pics soon!!

April 2011
Weight: 292
BMI: 50.1
Size pant: 26
Size shirt: 22/24
Size bra: 42C
Size shoe: 8.5-9

October 2012
Weight: 198
BMI: 34.0
Size pant: 18
Size shirt: L-XL
Size bra: 38D
Size shoe: 8

Did you catch that? My BMI has dropped 16 points!! Woo-hoo!! And I'm officially 28lbs away from my overall goal weight! Hoping I can meet that by April if not before!!! 

Thank you to all of the beautiful people in my life that have supported and encouraged me these past months. I love you all so much and can't express how much you mean to know who you are ;)

Peace, love & happiness,


Tuesday, February 21, 2012

Oh weight are a fickle beast!!

So...I will get to some more personal stuff first but let me get to what you are all waiting for.

Yeah, I'm stalled. I haven't lost a flipping pound. But I haven't gained either. Which is good. One of the doctors at work and a great ally told me that my body has been through a major change in a short period of time and I probably need to plateau. All I keep thinking in my mind is "AAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!" I also have to remember that I had an unfill and managed not to gain any weight and that prior to my unfill; before I got sick; I was feeling the need for a fill. So basically I'm back to that point. I need a fill and my appointment isn't until March 20th...*sigh*...a whole month away! But, I also haven't been working out. Between work and school, it seems there's no time!! Gotta find a way to work it in!!!

On to more personal matters...I'm currently going through a time of personal discovery. The worst part is that is brings a lot of emotion, hurt and pain to the surface. I'm lucky to have a wonderful set of friends, family and a great man in my life who are allowing me to go through this and supporting me through this difficult time.  Anxiety is something that I struggled with as a teenager but had really gotten a hold on but being in my first new relationship since Dad died has opened a lot of issues that I never dealt with. On that note, I've been asking for prayers for Craig and his family. His cousin died this past Sunday from complications of a motorcycle accident the previous Sunday. It's been a difficult time for him so please say a prayer for him & his family.
There are beautiful blue skies ahead and this is a wonderful life. I'm just trying to get to a point where I can enjoy them without any restriction!! Thanks again whoever reads this. I hope I'm helping in some way, not just with weight loss but also sharing my struggles. I think so often we live in a world were we just let our problems disappear or sweep them under the rug because it's inconvenient...time to let that all out folks, life is too short to spend it keeping pain and hurt stuck inside!!

Also, there are apparently quite a group of people who read this blog anonymously or just browse it...comment, say hi, tell me if you are on a similar journey...I'm interested in YOU!!!

Peace & much love,

Monday, January 30, 2012

Just a little bit more :)

Life is crazy & awesome at the moment. Just started school back up and I'm actually enjoying it. I'm taking Drawing & Media Methods II which is quite frightening for someone who does not have a good, solid drawing technique...but it'll get better, kinda the point of classes, I guess! I'm also taking an Art History Class on Modern Art since I loved my Renaissance to Modern class so well! And lastly a quite hippie friendly health class called Health & Wellness for Life.

Aside from that I have been working & trying to fulfill a nice social life :) I am in that "burning the candle at both ends" phase. It's hard for me to not see my friends but I am definitely suffering from some sleep deprivation! Luckily, I have 8 days off of work beginning Thursday so I get to celebrate my birthday with a bang!!! (Btw, my boyfriend is pretty awesome, too!)

And, I can proudly say that even with the .5cc removed from my band I went from 214.6 to 213.5. I have no clue how I have lost any but I won't complain. I have actually been rather indulgent & I've been trying to enjoy my little bit of extra food freedom during this time!! I get a fill on February 7th & I'll be ready to get it for sure! I have another 21lbs to lose by April 14th!! That would put me -100lbs & only 22lbs from my goal weight! I'm so excited!!!

Well, I just wanted to throw out a quick update!!! How's everyone else doing???


Wednesday, January 11, 2012

The bad side of things...

I probably didn't mention this here before but one of the goals I had set for myself was to lose 75lbs by January 1st, 2012 and if I did, my reward would be a pair of TOMS. 

YAY!! I successfully went from 292lbs to 214lbs which was total loss of 78lbs!! WOO-HOO!! These were my reward and I can't wait to actually wear them tomorrow. Here is a quick recap of my accomplishment so far!

Lost 78lbs (the holidays kept me at a stand-still :)
BMI from 50.1 to 36.7 that -13.4 points!
Shirts from size 22/24 or 2x down to x-large and sometime large (when it runs big! lol)
Pants from a size 26 to a size 18!! (this was actually a life goal that I wrote down years ago!! Never thought I would achieve it!)
Shoes from an 8 1/2 - 9 down to an 8
Ring size from a 9 to a 7
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bra size from a 42C to a 38D holla!
Now that you got the awesome, here is a little change of pace...prepare yourself for an epic story :)

Picture it, I come down with a sinus infection. Stupid me forgot to acknowledge that I cannot swallow giant horse pills. Might have been a good thing to remember. So, I get my antibiotics on Wednesday night after work and realize there is no way I can take them. The next day I called the pharmacy and they said to crush and take with food, no problem. Well, until lunch. I think I mentioned before that when you get sick your band can go kinda loopy, this was the exact circumstance which rendered me incapable of eating...for 2 days. So by Friday I was dry heaving absolutely nothing since I couldn't eat and was nauseated because the only thing on my tummy was mucus. So, I put a call in to the surgeon and had to go in for an emergency removal of .5cc's. Once that ordeal was over I called my PCP who recommended I try to get an injected dose of antibiotics and long story short ended up in Menorah's emergency room for a shot of Rocephin in my right butt cheek and a prescription for LIQUID antibiotics which would have saved me from all this in the first place!!

Moral of the story: remember you have a lapband, dorkfish!!!

Ok, so there is my little update! Life is still awesome, exploring new things, meeting new people, getting your heartbroken a little. It can all suck sometimes but in the long run it makes you appreciate the good things even more! Life can get messy but aren't you glad that we can clean right up again?